When I leave
I wish to leave all, fully
to take away all memories
but then to leave my writings
as that shall be the only story
I hope you’ll think of me
Please forget all hideousness
of the real me

Neal Ym (Phalguni Y)
May 2017

Goodbye lullaby

Sing to me and take me to space.

Let me swim in stars and emptiness.
Let me swim, drown in your hazy voice.
Let me fly unto death, into happiness.

Sing to me and I shall sleep in space.

Neal Ym (Phalguni Y)
February 15, 2016

The Universe too has kinks

And you know it
when you realise
even dying isn’t that simple,
it is as complicated as living.

Life is miserably beautiful, and
dear old Universe is sadistic.

What if
when you go
to the dear old home of Death,
it makes you forever stay instead

in a coma,
at the gate?

Neal Ym (Phalguni Y)
April 3, 2017

Subconscious sea

I close my eyes to take a sigh and dive into the minds of people,
to swim in the tangles of a deep dark ocean;
to close my eyes and float deep down
into all caves and corners of our souls,
to touch a sleeping monster and to stay awhile
watching the frantic ones banging their cage doors,
to leave a seaweed by their doors;
and to the depths from where the jellyfish come,
lighting up the scars, drawing up the contours of a world beyond,
I dive into further beyond to find a child curled up
in a hiccup, shivering on the ocean floor
and there I was amongst the wreckage of brave sailors and explorers
reaching out my hand to a child;
but alas, I open my eyes and all things fade into light,
and there she was before me standing in a smile
with magic miracles in her eyes
for me to give her a last kiss on her head
before I leave for the heavens to my death.

Neal Ym (Phalguni Y)
April 5, 2017